Park 2

This blog is now one-year-old (is that a good enough excuse for cake?) We dreamt up its name in a sun-drenched outdoor pool after our experience with airport assistance. I wanted to share our experiences in an attempt to make people better understand life with a disabled child.

Sadly we don’t travel quite as often as I’d like but I think that is probably fairly typical with a young family. You may have spotted that the experiences I share are mainly much simpler; I feel like I write a lot about toilets and play parks.

While spending time in play parks with your children is a fairly typical experience of most parents I seem to have taken it to another level. Having spent the majority of this year fundraising for an accessible roundabout in our local park, I now seem to have a bit of expertise in the area. In the past year I’ve thought about equipment design, considered the benefits of play on child development and even discussed the economics of play parks for the wider community.

Hopefully I’ve managed not to suck all the enjoyment out of all the play parks we’ve visited for ‘research’. The kids are well aware they have to pose for photos before being allowed to actually play!

Photo of Quinns and his Big Sister enjoying an accessible roundabout with Dad pushing and a Changing Place toilet in the background.

There is absolutely no doubt that this photo makes me smile. I love that Quinns and his Big Sister can play together in this way. You can see in the background that the Changing Place toilet is there if we need it. Reassurance that we can stay in this park for as long as we want. It was the sort of park where a family could spend the whole day. I should be really happy. In that photo it would appear that all my ‘dreams’ had come true except that they had not.

The problem was that the roundabout stood alone. It was separate from any of the four large play areas. As a family we managed about fifteen minutes of fun before the spinning became too much. No other children came near us and there was nothing else for Quinns to play on unless you count the ramp to nowhere he could go up to get a better view of all that was off limits to him. He was pretty much excluded from everything.

Photo of Quinns being joined by a friend on an accessible roundabout

On that same trip we also visited another park. This time we met up with friends who had children of similar ages to Quinns and Big Sister. The park itself had at least three areas with play equipment. There were accessible roundabouts in two of them and high backed swings in two. We were able to play in one area for a while, go for a walk while enjoying an ice cream and then play together in a different area of the park. It’s a really simple thing but for every park there needs to be something that Quinns can access with and at the same time as his friends.

This park was exceptional but while it was definitely better than our previous experiences I must admit I’d like to expect more. I said in my blog, Park life last year that I’d love to see an accessible roundabout in every park. It is still my dream that every park should have an accessible roundabout.

I now want to extend my vision. While every park including even the smallest play area should have an accessible roundabout every large park should have a range of equipment or even just more thought for children in wheelchairs and how they can be included in the play.

From our own experience wheelchair accessible surfaces are a must. Paths, roads, bumps and tunnels would be simple to do but add a lot of fun for wheels. A simple table for sand or water play would bring these play elements and more to their level. Table style musical instruments, so that friends can look each other in the eye as they play together, would be much better than sitting sideways on to a vertical board.

What I’m suggesting doesn’t need to be complicated or expensive just considered. Every child has a right to play and we should be making that happen.


Nothing compares?

Photo of Quinns and his best friend. Quinns laughs while his friend pulls a face.

When you have a baby there’s a list of developmental milestones to be ticked off. We as parents spend the first year or so worrying about the exact timing of each. We’re told not to compare our baby to others but we do it anyway. Is she crawling yet? Has he got teeth? If Big Sister were anything to go by it’s all over in a flash and it doesn’t really matter when they happen because eventually they all do.

Except in Quinns’ case they don’t. I threw out that list a very long time ago. It’s no longer important that he hasn’t met a milestone that he was supposed to have met at four months. Of course, we celebrate every small step he takes but he is nearly four and there’s no point dwelling on something that his friends are no longer working on. They’re onto bigger things like socialising with friends, learning to read, experiencing life and becoming more and more independent.

Even although he’s not met some of those first milestones (and no, we don’t know whether he ever will) he is just the same as anyone else his age.

It doesn’t matter that he can’t walk because The Bug helps him move around (and hopefully soon the Wizzybug!) It doesn’t matter that he doesn’t use words to talk. His body language, facial expressions and of course, the eye gaze computer all allow him to communicate with anyone willing to take the time.

We weren’t supposed to compare our babies and we’re not supposed to compare our children. However I actually find comparison a really useful tool in ensuring inclusion and independence for Quinns.

I often ask myself what was Big Sister doing at this age? What did we allow her to do or not allow her to do. Would we have taken her to Alton Towers at four; no, probably not. Would she be going to friends’ birthday parties; yes, she would.

Thankfully she helps uphold the rules. She grabs the toy from Quinns’ hand at the dinner table declaring ‘no toys at the table’ because that is what she was always told.

When I turn on the eye gaze for Quinns at mealtimes he immediately goes to the vehicles section. I hear truck, van, car, ferry, dinghy etc over and over again. That probably sounds familiar to any parent of an almost four-year-old boy.

That’s why it’s also really useful to compare with Best friend. So what activities is Best friend enjoying or not enjoying at the moment? Would he go for a sleepover at this age? Is he independent at a birthday party? What is he learning; the alphabet, his numbers?

I also compare myself to the other mums. Where are they at the party or in the swimming lesson? Where they are is where I need to be.

I don’t want to miss out on eating cake and chatting because I’m supporting Quinns to play party games although at this point I may not be the only mum sitting in the circle. At the swimming pool I need to ask myself what Quinns needs for me to be able to sit and watch while he has a swimming lesson.

How he gets places may be very different from his peers but with a little bit of help he will get there and hopefully, if I do my job right, he won’t have the embarrassment of his mum hanging around when he’s eighteen and in the pub with his mates!

Journey to change

In the beginning I cried because my baby was broken. It was difficult taking him to Baby Sensory because he wasn’t doing what the other babies were doing.

I persevered because I knew he was getting something from it. He was experiencing the sounds, the textures, the stories and all the amazing effort that was put into each class.

Although we stayed a little longer than most I also knew when it was time to move on. Quinns needed the next stage just like his peers.

I cried more when I realised we would have to move because our house had so many stairs. Even although I loved that house it didn’t work for our family and had to be changed. Now we’ve moved, our new house works for us all and we love it.

I’ve recently graduated from the Partners in Policymaking course run by In Control Scotland. It’s hard to describe what the eight month journey entailed. There were many many lessons but my main takeaways are as follows.

Quinns is not broken. My instincts were right, he was perfectly placed in that Baby Sensory class for the time we were there and ready to move on to toddler group when we finished.

Now I do nothing but smile about my beautiful boy and all the amazing things he’s doing. He’s part of our community. His smile spreads joy throughout the village. We really appreciate the efforts being made by everyone around to make activities more inclusive for him. In general, I feel like we’ve got this!

My challenge is in supporting Quinns’ inclusion with his peers while inaccessibility works against us.

I don’t cry about Quinns now but I still cry about stairs; how he can’t get to the places I want to take him; about steps that make it harder for us to access things; about non-existent or abused disabled parking; and about the lack of changing facilities. All of which restricts us.

The problem isn’t just ours to fix. Any one of us could need a wheelchair at any time and find ourselves excluded from many things we take for granted. Inclusion would undoubtedly be easier with better accessibility.

Quinns definitely does not need fixed but our inaccessible environment does and not just for Quinns but for everyone.

The end of Ante Pre

Photo of Quinns' eye gaze computer showing him taking a selfie with two others

It’s the last week of school and Quinns has just completed his first year at nursery. When he started last September I wrote about him for the Teach Us Too blog. I mentioned the trepidation that the staff felt reading about Quinns but also how they then fell in love with my boy.

This is my thank you to all the staff who’ve been involved over this year because I really appreciate what they’ve done for him. I’m giving you just a little run down of some of the things that have been thrown at them this year.

Like me they’ve had to come to terms with lots of new equipment. They’ve had to learn how it all works, remember the silly names we’ve come up with for them, and even name some new ones ; the Mean Machine for the standing frame is my particular favourite!

Quinns has introduced them to lots of people with different jobs. More names and professions than the staff care to remember (and we can all admit that we don’t always know our occupational therapists from our physiotherapists but we do appreciate what they do for Quinns).

They’ve gone above and beyond the usual experiences of nursery teachers. Some have even been hoisted themselves while being trained in manual handling. And of course they’ve had to listen to Big Sister who’s been happy to help by pointing out where they’re not doing things quite the same way as me.

A few moments that really stood out for me during the year:

1. When the decision was made to sit Quinns on a teachers knee on the stage in the middle of his class for the Christmas concert. He looked so pleased with himself.

2. After a tiring morning at Bobath I arrived with Quinns, in my arms just woken from a nap in the car, ready for his class photo. I’d given literally no thought to how best to include him but the staff had that covered. The Mean Machine was a great choice and Quinns smiling face in the photo is a constant reminder.

3. Taking part in the races at sports day pushing the Bug didn’t appear in any job description but all the parents agreed that smile was so worth it!

So to all the staff; none of you had any idea what you were letting yourselves in for at the start of the year but I have to say I think you’ve handled it all really well.

For everything, thank you and roll on next year. I get the feeling selfies on the eye gaze for the TAC meeting was just the beginning of something very exciting!

It’s not what you think

Right now I really don’t like the word respite. I have less of a problem with the concept. Every parent needs some rest and relaxation.

We recently went to Center Parcs for the first time. It was a family affair to celebrate Opa’s birthday. I admit I was sceptical about the place. We resisted for a while but actually I was impressed by what they had to offer.

I’m not talking about all the amazing activities available for active families (if you’ve never been believe me there are a lot!) Really I’m just talking about it’s toilets specifically it’s Changing Place toilets.

There was a Changing Place Toilet in the main village so on arrival day we were able to change Quinns before we got to our house.

There was a Changing Place in the swimming pool so we could take Quinns swimming every day!

And there was a Changing Place Toilet in the Sports Centre so we could change him before we set off for home.

The right facilities meant that we were able to take a break and enjoy all (well some, there are a lot!) of the activities that a place like that has to offer.

Note: The high backed swing in the play park was great but it would have been perfect if they’d had an accessible roundabout!

Playing with fire

I often describe Quinns as a thrill seeker. He’s always enjoyed going fast. As a baby we would swing his car seat fast to settle him. Now it’s the higher the better on the swing, the faster the better on the roundabout (I’m sure that’s why I’m so driven to get him an accessible roundabout).

When Best friend bashes the Bug into the wall at school all the mums gasp but actually Quinns has the biggest grin on his face (plus it’s his metal footplate that’s hit the wall not him). Best friend spends his time riding his bike. Learning to skid and doing wheelies. All risky activities but exactly what you’d expect from an almost four-year-old.

When you think about the rough and tumble that most children experience and enjoy, it’s important that we allow Quinns to experience as much of this as possible.

There is always a little bit of risk in everything we do. He needs to experience things like any child his age and learn his boundaries. He just needs a bit of extra help. We don’t want him wrapped in cotton wool.

Here’s Quinns holding the skewer toasting marshmallows over the fire. He’s doing exactly the same as Big Sister (eating too many marshmallows before bed!)

The best way to learn is to explore and he can’t do that if we over protect him. It’s our job to expose him to the same level of risk, safely of course, as his peers.


The school playground is a great place for me to catch up with all the other mums. This is especially true now that I’ve taken on making our local play park more inclusive. It’s fantastic that everyone is helping and has snippets of information to pass onto me at every home time.

A few weeks ago I realised that while I was thriving Quinns was getting thoroughly bored. He was watching all the children playing at the other side of the playground. I knew where he wanted and needed to be but I didn’t want to leave the chat. Nor did he want his mum hanging around with him!

Big sister was an option but she takes on quite a lot of responsibility already and she may not want her little brother hanging out with her all the time! Best friend is still too small to push the Bug around without making all the mums nervous wrecks. No-one but Quinns is happy when he bashes the Bug into the wall!

I thought about all the children that are around after school and Buddy seemed like the perfect choice. He’s the same age as Big Sister and he’s been making Quinns laugh with his silly faces and pretend falling over for a while.

All he needs to do is push Quinns to where the action is making sure that Quinns is happy. Quinns’ Bug is not a toy to be pushed around or to have a shot and I’m sure Buddy will respect that.

Nervously we let Buddy take Quinns for the first time and within minutes they were off playing hide and seek with the others. Most of us mums relaxed into our conversations reassured by Quinns’ smiles as he flew past us every now and again.